July 25th, 2011 by Kateastrophe

THERE IS ABSOLUTELY NOTHING WRONG WITH ME, MY UTERUS, MY BLOOD OR MY HUSBAND.  There is no reason they can find why we miscarried three times in the last year.

Well, I take that back a little.  There sort of is something wrong.  I have an anomaly of the MTHFR (yes, I thought the same thing you’re thinking when I saw that) gene which affects the way my body absorbs B-12 but my levels are totally normal at this point in my life.  The doctor thinks this might affect me 20-30 years down the road and this anomaly can cause heart disease.  But for now he sees nothing in my levels that would indicate that would cause me to miscarry.

I think I should be relieved?  But I’m sort of not?

I love my doctor because he is going to take precautionary measures for our next pregnancy.  I am going to be on a prenatal pill made especially for women with the MTHFR thing - it has extra folic acid to help me absorb B-12 better.  I am going to start progesterone shots as soon as we get our next positive pregnancy test.  Finally he wants me to take a baby aspirin every day just in case there’s a clotting disorder we couldn’t identify.  It’s all we can do.  So I can try to get pregnant again right away but there is nothing he can do to help guarantee we won’t have another miscarriage.

He said that if I miscarry again they are going to do a full scope of my uterus since the MRI can technically miss things but he doesn’t think it did.  It’s just an option for the future.  He also said that statisically, my chances of having a totally normal 4th pregnancy are upwards of 65-70%.  Those odds sound good but I also know that only 5% of women who miscarry do so in the second trimester, only 2% of women miscarry twice in a row and only 1% ever miscarry three times in a row so I’m starting to realize I represent the rarity in all these cases.

So there it is.  There’s no answer, no solution, just hopes and prayers and waiting.

DAMN IT.

July 22nd, 2011 by Kateastrophe

The business isn’t letting up but in the interest of keeping the interwebs informed of my VERY IMPORTANT LIFE, here is a fun bulleted list of goings on:

• Baby maker update (of sorts) is up over at my other blizog.   It’s one in which I go “whaaa?”
• I am currently out on baby showers - this is currently not fun because I’ve been invited to ELEVENTY BILLION in the last two weeks.  To the lovely moms-to-be, know this.  It’s not you, it’s your baby.  OK, that sounded mean.  It’s not you or your baby, it’s me and my lack thereof and it’s probably better that I don’t go because I’ll either punch you in the face out of jealousy or spend the whole thing crying.  Plus, let’s be honest, unless I really, REALLY like you, I’m not stepping FOOT in any place that sells baby stuff so you wouldn’t get a present anyway.  I’d just come, eat your food, cry at you or punch you and leave.  PARTY.
• I have extremely awesome friends.  I know this isn’t new information but I just wanted to make sure everyone knows it.
• One of my extremely awesome friends made THIS crepe cake the other night and I’m fairly certain that nothing I eat will ever taste as good as this did.
• Pinterest is making me fat.  See above bullet.
• Speaking of things that are making me fat, my body has encountered the one downside to my anti-depressant.  Mixed with the seemingly mandatory “miscarriage fifteen” I am officially hugongous.  I’ve taken to wearing jersey skirts because none of my pants fit.  Working out at least an hour four times a week and eating a lot of tuna wraps doesn’t seem to be helping it either.  So basically in the last year I’ve gained a ton of baby weight, with no baby.  God and I are going to have a chat about the horrible unfairness of that one of these days.
• I have turned into an idiot.  After airheadedly misplacing my brand new camera about fifty times on the annual  girl’s trip in California last month (luckily we were at my Grandma’s house so misplacing is a strong word), I topped off that awesomeness with leaving it (and my brand new Nook) there entirely.  I have a quick and easy way to get them back to me but I can’t seem to focus long enough to GET IT DONE.  So Jewels, B and Sara, I’m sorry that we STILL don’t have our picture from in front of the San Diego Temple.  I am going to mark some time in my calendar this weekend to just get it back already.
• I’m going on my first business trip with my new job at the beginning of August.  My new position doesn’t require these often so this is a treat.  It’s also an extra special treat because I’m going to Denver and I get to extend my stay and see ANNE!!  We’ve been horrible best friends for the past couple of years because we haven’t seen each other since the notorious weekend of the Killer’s concert.  I’m so excited to see her I might pee my pants a little bit.
• Does anyone besides me hate the term “BFF?”  I can’t even explain why but I HATE IT.  I am probably guilty of using it in the past but over the last few years I’ve grown to think it might be the dumbest acronym ever - and there are some pretty darn stupid acronyms.  Trust me, I know.  My work speaks only in acronyms.
• I should be working right now…so I’m going to go ahead and do that.

July 7th, 2011 by Kateastrophe

Do you Pinterest?  Because OMG it’s amazing.

If you don’t know what it is, it’s an application that allows you to “pin” pictures to different “board” categories — sort of like an inspiration cork board you often see interior decorators use. I love being able to “pin” pictures to keep them organized rather than trying to bookmark or email myself a gabillion images, ideas, recipes, etc. Plus you can pin things other people have pinned AND follow friends and other people on Pinterest with awesome taste.  It’s highly addicting and I now use it more than Facebook.  I KNOW.

I’ve been on for quite a while now and recently I’ve seen the blogosphere on fire with Pinterest mentions.  I don’t know why it took me so long to talk about it.  Oh, that’s right.  It’s because MY LIFE IS INSANE.

Anyway, if you’re not on Pinterest and want to be, leave me a comment and I’ll send you an invite.  There’s nothing in it for me…just free eye-candy for all! You can see all my boards and follow me if you’d like here.